Another lost day...

Mood havent been good.. feel like crying the whole day.. tired and sleepy but dont dare to fall asleep as my mind will start to work things out.. made me think of unpredictable future now..

Really dont know where should i head and go.. what decision should be made that will be correct?? The short cut or the hard way?? I just couldnt imagine it.. Both looks so far away and dark, not even a dim of light appear along the way..

Just really hope things could just disappear, but that's fantasy and not reality.. The reality is here and yet, we hope to turn away from it.. Things getting more and more scarier.. No longer i feel secure or confident of my way now.. Everything is in the state of blurness.. Sigh..

How many really do i have to repeat here?? No longer understand my ownself, losing the identity of me or losing the strength in me? Hope i could again find back myself and realise what i should do to work things out..